my summer 2006

x or y?

alright, what's now? i dont know. hmmm... my dad's coming home soon. sometime in june. the month of may is almost over, i need to decide whether what to prioritize: board exam or the urge of getting outta here. it makes me really frustrated everytime i think of my friends who are doing well in their careers as civil engineers. and it makes me more frustrated whenever i realize that they have good lovelives as well, you know what im saying. its like everything's in the right place while mine is... like what? its like a mess! argh! no, not really...hehehe. im just over reacting. but it doesnt mean im not serious huh.

for more than a week=)

tila yata naunahan na naman ako ng katamaran, hehehe... ilang araw din ang dumaan bgo ku nasundan ang last blog entry ku. pano b nmn, i was about to post a new entry after baguio escapade, nabura eh... huhuhu. malas. pero cguro tinamad lng talaga ku. kwento ku n lng kung hanggang san un kaya ku ha.. hehehe.

hmmm, lemme start with our visit to pangasinan and baguio. that was may17-18. sobrang ligaya ku! dati ku pa kc gusto ulet pumunta ng baguio. and besides i really want to visit my inang, justine and my cousin ate grace. c manang macel ku din who is pregnant right now. hehehe, lhat pla cla gusto ku na makita. masaya nmn pero na-disappoint ako sa ukay ukay.. d ku inasahan na d gnun kaganda. at isa pa, dami ku gastos ha. nagalaw ku na un ipon ku, sigh! pero tulad nga ng lagi kong sinasabi, d kyang tumbasan ng kht na anong halaga ang kaligayahan na madarama ku. kc minsan lang ako matuwa.

and have i mentioned that i finally got a response from lflicks? so happy! xempre its my birthday gift for myself, ahahaha! d ku nmn in-order lhat, juz some of the movies lang. nextime n lng ang iba kc mejo marami n ku gastos this month, hindi maganda un gnun. these are my orders bytheway: + Lword season 3+ south of nowhere+ all over me+ better than chocolate+ but im a cheerleader+ gia+ incredibly true adventures.....+ my summer of love+Lword seasons 1&2 soundtrack+ i think the total price is more or less P1500. happiness!

then, juz last tuesday, may25, i was with glenn and we went to Big Dipper Maritime Services Corporation @ UN Ave. Nag-apply kme for abroad. wala lang, juz trying our luck. malay mu dba? sigh, mas matagal p un binyahe ku kesa sa pananatili nmen dun. hehehe, kya kme ni glenn ay nanuod n lamang ng MI3 sa SM mnila! woooot! ang ganda ng movie! after that, we bought some dvds @ quiapo (san p nga ba?)

alright im almost done... hehehe. we were supposed to be with our co-employees here @ iweb for a company outing last may28. excited ako dhil sa Club MAnila East ito gaganapin. pero all of a sudden, ayaw n nila sumama. so biglaan din ang pagpayag ku na pumunta kina mherczh. yup, sa padre garcia batangas poh ito! ang layo! wala nga ku tulog eh. pero xempre masaya kc na-appreciate nman ng aking kaibigan ang effort dba? i was with bunny and bernard.

that's it. ciao.

missing

what missing means?

v. missed, miss·ing, miss·es

To fail to hit, reach, catch, meet, or otherwise make contact with.
To fail to perceive, understand, or experience

To escape or avoid

To discover the absence or loss of

adj.

Not present; absent

not existing

therefore, current mood: missing

argh! i hate it! my graduation pictures is missing! i cant find it! i dont know, of course i misplaced it, but how could i! and it shouldnt be missing! huhuhuhu!

and yes, im missing a lot of people as of this moment. that's why sometimes i dont wanna passed by the old places. it just give me joy for awhile but a lot of sadness afterwards.

enough.

backwards

“naglakad” ako pabalik
binalikan ko lahat ng pinaggalingan natin
halo –halong emosyon ang aking naramdaman
daming bagay kung nakita
na di ko napansin nung tayoy papunta

“naglakad” ako pabalik
sa ibang parte ng ating dinaanan
bakit bakas lang ng aking paa ang tangi kong nakita?
di ko alam kung yung sa iyoy natabunan na


“naglakad” ako pabalik
at ngayon naiintindihan ko na
sa karamihan ng pagkakataon,
ako lang pala ang naglalakad mag-isa
di ko yun napansin, di ko yun nakita

me, myself, and kaloi

VISAGE. FACES. AND ALL ARE MASKS. I AM THE MASTER OF MY EMOTIONS.

Not everyone is able to take things to a deeper level -- know when to stop trying.
fcuk... even my horoscope is talking shit.

why do people always let you down, no matter how much you've done for them??? so starting today, i'll try not to need anything from anyone. i'll try not to think that there will always be someone to be there for me in times of... errr... in times like this.

what am i really going through right now, anyway? well, i always have this feeling of sadness. yeah i know, you see me smiling and probably laughing most of the time. and i maybe included in your list of 'my funny friends.' but its no bogus dude. that's actually really me. one happy person. hmmmm... confusing?!? nah... i guess what im trying to say here is that, another side of kaloi is talking here. 'dhil hindi lhat ng tumatawa ay masaya at lalong hindi lahat ng seryoso ay alam na ang gusto nila.'
haaaaaaaaaay... have you ever felt the feeling of emptiness? a feeling that is really unusual for someone like me. i still live with my family, i work five days a week, and indeed have lots of friends. that's why sometimes it bothers me. i cant feel any sense of belonging for quite a long time now. and worse, there are times that i feel less as a person.

damn, what's wrong with me?
sigh....

happiness

hahahahahaha!!!

another blogger! whatafuck... hope i wont get sick and tired of it, lolz!

naaah... i know ill enjoy here!

so i guess - bye friendster blog - bye xanga blog...

W E L C O M E K A L O I ! ! !