drama thingie

whatta weekend! evrybody knows about it na... i told it first to dan last friday night, sept08... he was like, i-didnt-see-it-coming reaction. which i understand. i didnt give any signs, clues, or anything... because i really dont have reason to. hmmm, the only reason is career growth (and thats the best reason ). i was touched by what he said, he was more than like a boss that time, a friend... because i told him i dont know how to say it with the rest of the guys. parting ways. i told them after shift --- joey, neil, ai, abs, and kuya arman. i told it to shaila on sunday shift. and she cried like a baby. she doesnt want me to go. i was so touched. she said i am one of her close friends amongst us. that she can easily open up anything to me. i dont fucking know how to stop her from crying. sigh.

oh no, its monday now... il be seeing joey and the rest. hmmm, i cant talk much about the new job, nothing's special. i was at the cupi at 2pm when tibo texted me, why i am resigning. i replied, he replied, i explained, he joked around... and liberty is already aware about it, of course natz will be aware... hmmm, and dexter... and i told to fatimah... so much fuckin drama... like i dont wanna think about it, but i cannot. they dont want me to go... theyre not convince that nothing will fuckin change... which, maybe true. i told fatimah that i juz need to get the hang of my new job. and once i get the fuck out of it, i can do the usual things. but she doubts it. even dexter, he was sad about me leaving. like as if he is so much affected... hehehe. liberty, i feel her sadness too. i thank evryone, neil, abs, kuya arman, natz, ai, and shai. and joey's... weve been through a lot already. double sigh.

i am more than lonely right now... when i was in the process of decision making, i cried because of confusion. and alright, i admit, i was scared at the same time. today is different... as the 23rd is fuckin nearly approaching, its starting to synch in... yeah, theyre right... its going to be a whole fuckin new world. and theres no way out now. i dont wanna be selfish but it is better that i am the one leaving, because i could never bear to be left behind, never... i cant take that, id rather die. triple sigh.