i miss this

that's right... i miss this. i miss blogging... i miss internet surfing =(
it has been a looong time since my last entry huh... oh well a lot of things happened. things i didnt even expect. sigh. i dunno. hmmm before i forget, we are celebrating eid al-fitr today. its a non-working holiday (thank god!) i just wish everyday is a holiday day.

lets talk about work? yeah, what else?! its toxic man! its just so fetch that i am there! with all honesty, i cant make myself fucking happy and fucking appreciate evrything there! and i wanna be honest to myself, nahihirapan ako. and not even a single soul knows that, i guess. hmmm, bcoz im not telling to anyone either. you probably know why, its not so me to tell how i really feel, better fucking keep it dude. pressured. yeah thats the word. and im not used to it. like, i wanna get out but i cant, not until i have proven something to them. give yourself 6-8 months kaLoi then get outta there! ive been reading my journal and i noticed that theres no day i didnt mention 'i hate this day' which i guess is true. i hate it when kalbo mentioned about the commission il be getting. its half percent. yeah, for evry project. you dont need to fucking remind me of that always. because im sorry but its not worth it.

alright, whatever i say i have to admit --- dont wanna be bum so i need this, fuck!