naknampucha

natatakot ako.
natatakot ako hndi dhil hndi ku tlga alam kung san ako patungo.
natatakot ako dahil hndi ku alam kung saan ako magsisimula.
masyadong maraming bagay kc akong naiicp.
nakakaasar.

hmmm...

alright, so im a professional bum, ehehehe. but im enjoying this. i mean im not happy that i dont have work, i juz feel so great that i am able to have some rest (at least). kumbaga sa baterya, nagre-recharge lang nman ako. these past few days, a lot of my friends keep on asking how am i.. or what im up to. i guess hndi rin cla sanay ng ganito ako. sabi kc nla im a workaholic, hmm, mejo totoo nman pag binabalikan ku ang mga nakaraan, ehehe. well, i dunno.. but i always say im ok though i really feel lost nowadays. lost? what do i mean? i dont know either... so, i guess i really am... lost.

my epec application has been approved, happiness... its really one step at a time. il receive it within the next 2weeks.

enjoy the coffee instead

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got togetherto visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned intocomplaints about stress in work and life. Offering his guests coffee,the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot ofcoffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal,some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them tohelp themselves to hot coffee.
When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said:"If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up,leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is but normal foryou to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of yourproblems and stress.
What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but youconsciously went for the best cups and were eyeing each other's cups.
Now if life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in societyare the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, but thequality of Life doesn't change. Sometimes, by concentrating only onthe cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee in it."
So, don't let the cups drive you... Enjoy the coffee instead.

na-touched tlga ako nun umpisa..lolz!

A Woman's Secret .. and her Prayers *

There was once a man and woman who had been married for more than60 years. They had shared everything. They had talked about everything.They had kept no secrets from each other except that the little oldwoman had a shoe box in the top of her closet that she had cautioned herhusband never to open or ask her about.
For all of these years, he had never thought about the box, butone d! ay the little old woman got very sick and the doctor said shewould not recover....
In trying to sort out their affairs, the little old man took downthe shoe box and took it to his wife's bedside. She agreed that it wastimethat he should know what was in the box.When he opened it, he found two crocheted dolls and a stack of moneytotaling $25,000.
He asked her about the contents."When we were to be married," she said, "my grandmother told methe secret of a happy marriage was to never argue. She told me that if Iever got angry with you, I sho! uld just keep quiet and crochet a doll."
The little old man was so moved; he had to fight back tears. OnlyTwo precious dolls were in the box. She had only been angry with him twotimes in all those years of living and loving. He almost burst withhappiness......"Honey," he said, "that explains the dolls, but what about all ofThis money? Where did it come from?""Oh," she said, "that's the money I made from selling all the dolls..."

so close

14 May 2007

senators:
1. chiz escudero
2. joker arroyo
3. loren legarda
4. mike defensor
5. koko pimentel
6. chavit singson
7. alan cayetano
8. pichay



congressman:
duavit

governor:
ynares

vice governor:
blank

mayor:
blank

vice mayor:
teem balgoa

boss kaLoi ™

do not take life's experiences too seriously. above all, do not let them hurt you, for in reality they are nothing but dream experiences... if circumstances are bad and you have to bear them, do not make them a part of yourself. play your part in life, but never forget that it is only a role. there are two types of people who will tell you that you cannot make a difference in this world:those who are afraid to try and those who are afraid you will succeed.

b&w..sepia..passed?

neil and willa caluruega tagaytay

i juz saw this pix @ yahoo photos i guess then edited it

kaLoi @ pangasinan

abs @ taal vista tagaytay

heard abt a company that sucks?

i just been there...

appreciation is good (if really from within) but a little consideration is much better...

hmm, sabagay, kung wla kang konsiderasyon, hndi totoong naa-appreciate mu ang isang bagay, ayt?

i have realized a lot of things while i was about to leave the company where i felt like an asshole for more than 8months... realizations that i know will make me a better person... sigh, aalis na lang ako, as in sa last day ku, puro sama pren ng loob ang pabaon ng kumpanyang yun! sa toto lang sa sobrang sama ng nararamdaman ko ngaun, i really dunno how to start this! fuck! that company sucks!

realizations: (1) hndi lhat ng mukang mayaman ay totong mayaman. (2) maraming utang ang mayari ng isang bulok na kumpanya. (3) hrd in a company is very much needed lalo na kung hndi nmn marunong humawak ng tao un mga mayari. (4) i dont have patience on petty things. (5) i have control with my emotions. (6) meron akong pinag-aralan. (7) and the list goes on...

alright il tell you the whole story...

there was this project, cabinets (marine ply + laminate). client: jacob... sometime in april. it was also by that time i filed my resignation letter. i havent realized that there will be two kinds of laminates to be used. hndi ku tlga napansin and i know its my fault (as always!). so aun, palit ng laminate. cost: materials and labor! hmm, its really ok with me, kasalanan ku nman kc tlga un. and i also admit na sobrang gulo ng pagiisip ku nun mga panahon na un. sobrang dami ku iniisip. natapos din at naideliver! haaaay.. ok meron p pla.. during our delivery at seattles binondo, nawala un isang electric drill, ang again... it was my fault daw! alright! whatthefuck! finished.

there... because of these, i wouldnt be able to get all my commission. the fucking commission ive been holding on to kaya natitiis ku lhat ng pagod at sama ng loob.. the fucking commission na pinagmamalaki sken ng magaling kong boss kya dpat dw mag-OT ako... the fucking commission na kanilang kanila na! at bka hndi cla makatulog sa gabi!

sigh, im not really after the money. hndi ako mayaman. at sa totoo lang mukha tlga akong pera.. pero hnding hndi ko gagawin ang makiusap para lang wag na nila ikaltas sken un charges. at hndi din ako nag-sorry... tulad ng gusto nlang mangyari. alright, pride has taken over me but im proud of it. un na lang ang matitira sken, kukunin pa nila? ano yan??! in my 8 months of stay there, ihndi ako naging brat. masama sa loob ku that i was not able to speak my mind during my stay there. and i swear, i never felt to be the person in charge in production. never. meron pla, in times like that... blames! un nga yta ang naging posisyon ku dun, para meron masisi. kya nga i am not proud to tell my job title, dahil hndi ku nman nararamdaman. mabuti pa nun nsa call center ako. when i was an agent, i know im an agent. when i was promoted, i gained more respect and i felt like their supervisor.

just imagine what they have told me.. ang commission daw ay base sa performance! and i was like.... what a crap! putangina nio! ganid kayong mga hayop kau! they evaluated my performance with that one project??! with that mistakes??! bullshit! if only they have little consideration with their employees, they would have at least recall what ive done with their company. sacrifices. hndi un hihintayin pa nila akong makiusap.

sobrang nalulungkot lang ako dhil wla man lang konting konsiderasyon. ayokong ilista lhat ng nagawa ko para sa kanila at isumbat un, pero hndi ku matiis. sana man lang nakita nla un at naalala bgo nla hinusgahan un performance ku... sniff... anyway, pera lang yan, kikitain ku pa yan.. pero cla, gahaman ang mga potangena! palibhasa ang daming mga utang! ang laki ng natipid nla sken!

enough. yoko na. non sense naman.

karma strikes two.